You know how most people tend to date the same type of person each go-around? Like, some women only date nerds or bad boys… or they all have very similar appearances or personality traits… I have finally come to the conclusion on my “type” and I think it’s about time I try even harder to change it.

I always try to date men that were different than my exes. In that respect, I have. They all differ in ethnicities & socio-economic backgrounds… education levels and career aspirations widely range from retail to the very top of the corporate ladder. The one and only thing I can find in common with these men are the fact they are completely selfish… and instead of me being their companion, I’m just along for the ride until my usefulness expires. The most logical thing is just walk away and not get hurt, but by the time the masks finally come off, and their true colors show… I’ve already invested a lot of time, money, energy and emotion into the relationship, and I’m always heartbroken in the end.

The second I express any discontent or stand up for myself because I know I deserve some respect, I’m the bitch… I’m the one that is delusional… or I’m just completely ignored. There is never a resolution, and I end up holding a lot of anger and resentment.

It would just be nice to be with someone who had the same respect and regard for me as I did for them… but I highly doubt that will ever happen. Even my own family abuses the fact that I would do anything for them…