I guess its a rough patch again. I dislike this bipolar thing I seem to attract.

Since my birthday, I have been feeling rather blue. I feel like I haven’t accomplished as much as I should have… and I am no where near where I should be financially. Of all my friends, I will be the last to get my bachelor’s degree. I’m at a job in which I don’t see very much opportunity for advancement. I still live at home…

With all the being said, I am very grateful to have Dwele in my life. I admit, we have our rough patches, but the one thing I am taking from this experience is all the things I’m learning from him.

1. Everyone needs f*** you money. For the first time in my life, I am forcing myself to save $. And I’m not touching it! I never want to be in a position to ever borrow $$ from an ex. I only have a double digit amount saved, but its a start!

2. Be a woman, not a girl. At first, I didn’t undestand what he meant. Biologically, I am a woman and not a girl… but its so much more than that!
a) be confident in yourself and your decisions.
b) look, dress, speak and carry yourself like a woman.
c) Cosmo put the last one best, be a fun, fearless female

3) Always follow through. I have a hard time with this one because I’m so indecisive. I’m getting better though.

those would be the top three on my list…. to be honest, I lost my train of thought, and I need to rest my head.

Its just the first day of the month, but it means I’m one day closer to the new year.

Darn those Japanese and their cuteness overload!! I generally do not like salads, but it’s hard not to like one with star and heart shaped vegetables.

Why don’t they make stuff like this out here?

It’s only been 8 hrs since my birthday (I was born 7AM) and I can’t believe how great my day as been so far!

• Dwele and I are going to Vegas this weekend.
• My friends at work all pitched in for a bottle of Patron & they took me out to lunch… love it!
• After work, me and shyla.monster will be @ the Hat with Geoff & Kyle for dinner…
• Dwele and I are going to go out and paint the town red! I think I’m going to get me a lap dance @ the Castle
• Mike finally got my birthday right! He wasn’t a day off! He gave me a happy birthday call
• All the <3 on myspace & facebook <3 you guys!

I think this is going to be the best birthday yet. Thank you to all of you who made my day extra special!

Football season is upon us. I can’t say I’m a die-hard fan, but when I came across this article on mademen.com, I couldn’t help but share. Y’all should check it out .. it’s like Maxim but fresh

Rules For Watching The NFL

Guys’ guide to watchin’ the game
Mon, 09/14/2009 – 12:48 pm

It’s upon us, Man-Friends. The Gridiron Season. In all its sweating, toiling, and general ass-kicking glory. We have it to bask in until the first week of February, 2010 and — thanks to round-the-clock programming on the NFL Network — can enjoy it at any waking hour of the day. Food will be consumed that could possibly trigger a heart attack. Alcohol will be consumed that will likely earn you a DUI. And asskicking football will be watched hours upon end. We’re gettin’ a little teary-eyed.

You love hanging with your home boys to watch the goodness, but there’s always ‘that guy.’ You know the one. He didn’t read the rules before he showed up to watch the game(s). Yeah. These rules.

Man Up
Be prepared to lock it in for the day and absorb the day’s offerings. A Sunday of watching professional football will cover at least 10 ½ hours and college football viewing can be several hours more than that. The first guy to leave the show pack will receive a scarlet ‘P’ for life and be deemed a pussy for eternity.

Hold Your Booze
Nothing sucks more than the douche that passes out at halftime. Either pace yourself or build up a tolerance like a real man. Football and booze go together like peanut butter and jelly, so if you can’t handle the combo, then go watch tennis with the other pansies.

Forget the Stats
We know you must be proud of yourself for knowing how many yards Doug Williams tossed in Super Bowl XXII and want to spout this put during the half time chicken wing lunch. Here’s a tip: no one else cares. Numbers may make you feel a movement in your pants, but 99.9% of real football dudes will want to kick you in the vagina for boring them with this crap. Zip it and watch the game, Nerdly.

Leave the Kids at Home
We know. The condom broke six years ago and now you have a lovely daughter that you love and adore. Problem is, your wife has a six hour wedding shower to attend and your babysitter is still processing that restraining order. Bringing your little tyke to watch the games with the guys won’t be such a big deal, right? Wrong. You’d be better of Benadryl-ing the child and going to watch the games while hoping the cops are none the wiser.

Leave Your Chick at Home
Even worse than bringing your brat to watch the game is allowing your gal to tag along. You know your friend Jim who said his wife will be coming to watch and your two ladies can hang out together? She won’t show up. Now you have your football-hating girl shooting you daggers while you eat 12 pounds of chips and dip. As a bonus, your friends will now hate you and your chick won’t give it up until at least mid-season. Trust us.

Don’t Ask Questions
“There is never a dumb question” was the dumbest advice any teacher every doled out. When watching football – or any sport for that matter – don’t ask what is obvious to every one else present. That last call was an illegal formation. You are watching the game. How could you not know that, Idiot?

Dial the Outfit Down
Okay, we hate the jersey-wearing douches partly because those things cost more than our monthly salary, but we’ll deal with it. What you can’t do is add the dumbass accessories. You know, the matching hat, the team-emblem-shaped watch, the socks pulled up to your beach-cut shorts, the f’ing face paint, the color-coordinated jock strap. You are a walking billboard for your team. And everyone wants to punch you for it.

Break Your Fingers
Having six fantasy leagues going and four pick ‘em leagues is fun and all, but you don’t have to text a comment about every single play to smartNFLtool@gmail.com — under the guise of trash talking. Avoid exercising your fingers while drinking in the action. Unless it’s to grasp two cans of beer at the same time or shoving a middle at someone’s team. Those are football approved exercises.

I’m not much of a fan of Taylor Swift, but I do believe everyone is entitled to their moment to shine. I think its lame that he upstaged her. Kanye, as great as you are, can’t you just be nice for one night?

People always say knowledge is power… but this one artist makes knowledge aesthetically beautiful too! About damn time! You have to click the image to see it in its full glory.

Digital Distractions

I stumbled across informationisbeautiful.net and was absolutely delighted with my 2 favorite things… great vector/graphic design and informational graphs (yes, I am a nerd).

Love it!

I absolutely LOVE this song. I’m glad Jay-Z and the gang (Kanye & Rhianna) performed this at his 9/11 benefit.

Besides that, it’s crazy to think it’s been 8 years since this happened. Its my thoughts and prayers still go out to those who have lost loved ones… and my prayers are with those who are now suffering from medical complications that occurred from saving others.

Statement kind of explains it all.