So much has been going on! I don’t even know where to begin!

Last month, I finally ended my long stint as an accounting clerk. The work was okay, but the work environment was TERRIBLE. I’ve never been around so many negative people in my life! Working there started affecting me emotionally, phyiscally… and everyone that knows me could tell how negative I became as a result of my employment there. I was MISERABLE! I was let go mid-June, and it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me! I started the long process of vacationing and really enjoying my me time while looking for work. I forgot how blissful life was when I wasn’t bombarded by the stresses of negative environment.

I went to EDC 2010… AMAZING as always. This year, I went with some amazing girls too! Bunni & English Muffin (E-Muffin).  I may have partied too hard, but it was all worth it… Basement Jaxx, Moby, A-Trak, Steve Aoki… great times…

Everything is falling into place more or less. Granted I am behind on a few bills, but that’ll be caught up very soon. I started a new job at Color Ad. Not really sure what my exact title is, but I love the pace of the office and that there is just so much to do! Never a dull moment! Besides that, there is a gorgeous white Chow named Mister that I get to pet on my free time. It’s a $10/hr pay cut for me, but it’s right down the street from school, and I’ve never met so many positive people who are all working towards the same goal! I’ve always wanted to see how Advertising firms work, so this is just a really great opportunity.

Anyway, I need to work on my notes and organize myself for tomorrow.

Love Always,

LC

I went to the bank on my break to cash my paycheck. Then, I walk out and realize that I left my keys inside the branch.

I walk back inside, no keys. I asked the tellers and looked all over… they had keys, but they weren’t mine.

I go to the parking lot, looked there no keys… and with my car, you can’t lock the car from the inside from the driver’s side… so I knew I had the keys with me inside the branch…

15 minutes pass… no keys.

I’m thinking, “How on earth am I going to get back to work? What am I going to do about my car?”

I go back into the branch and give the teller my # so if they do find my keys, they can give me a call… then this old lady with a walker says, “Can someone help me, my car keys won’t open my car?” Sure enough, the old lady thought my keys were hers (although our key rings and key sizes were COMPLETELY different).

I hope I’m not like that when I’m old.

So, in church we covered Exodus 13-20… where Moses receives the 10 commandments… It’s kind of nice to take in the bible for what it has to offer away from what the media portrays and really learn something from it.

Anyhow, the commandments are mentioned again after the birth of Jesus in the book of Matthew. I was reading Matthew 5:27-28 and it says,

You have heard the it was said, “Do not commit adultery.” But I tell you, everyone who looks at a woman to lust for her has already committed adultery with her in his heart.

I wish more people realized the act of cheating is more than a physical act. So many of my exes honestly believe that unless their penis enters some sort of orifice in another female’s body, it’s not cheating. The intent to lust after another woman or even emotionally lust after another woman is cheating… For example, Andwele (the d-bag) on a very regular basis would message and call his ex girlfriend to tell her how much he loved her. Through explicit messages about how he doesn’t want other men fucking her… the list goes on. Although she was miles and miles away, she enabled his behavior, just like everyone else in his life, and I’m sure apart of her really wants to reconcile with him…

Honestly, it was a lot more painful to be in a relationship with a person who could not commit to me emotionally. I could look past physical cheating… but to give your heart and soul to another person far worse than any act of fucking. Physical attraction comes and goes, it can be worked on, etc… but once you give your love to someone and they damage your heart… how can you possibly look back?

Reading those lines really made wonder, how often we all committed adultery to a loved one? How often do we lust after people we aren’t supposed to? How often do we hold little disregard for respect for the people who care for us?

Its amazing. Review coming soon!

There is just so much to worry about… not enough time to fix it.

It was a bust again. No present, no I love you, just a mean jackass.

Eff Dwele.

Loser in weight loss!
Weighed myself today, 148.8 lbs. It’s insane to think about 2 years ago, I was 170ish. I’m inbetween dress sizes right now (too big for a 10, too small for a 12) but I’m really happy with my progress. It’s even crazier to think, when I first met Sean (the ex)… I was 125 pounds. All that eating we did totally took a number on the both of us! Haha, I don’t regret it at all. I can’t even tell you all the ridiculous, food related stories we have. I guess we were really hedonists. Hahahaha.

My weight loss has steadied and for the first time ever, I actually know why!

a) I haven’t been exercising
b) I haven’t been calorie counting (still making healthy choices though)

I’m eating all the food I love, so I really can’t complain. I will lose more weight, but right now I’m okay with what I’m doing.

I just needed a break from planning my meals. I figure, this would be create a good shock to my body and I won’t plateau.

Most people I know stick to their diets until they reach their goal, and the second they start eating “normally” it all goes to hell. That WILL NOT happen to me. I won’t let it.

I wish there was another term for losing weight besides dieting. Diet is a 4 letter word. No one should ever have it in their vocabulary!

I keep coming across all this “buzz” about the MTV hit, Jersey Shore. It’s all over the mags, entertainment blogs… all my coworkers are talking about it. So recently, I’ve forced myself to finally catch a glimpse of this show. My first reaction, “This show is absolute trash!”

I don’t have any patience with people acting stupid. The entire cast is in my age group, yet their vocabulary and mental intellect barely surpasses that of a 12 year-old. The drama and the things they deem important, all so superficial and they all lack substance. There is nothing “real” or natural about any of them. I probably watched 10 minutes of the show… and if I could demand for those 10 minutes, I would.

I am thankful that this show is a great reminder of why I don’t really watch TV anymore. I’d rather be a nerd and stick to reading.

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